our greatest blessings come to us by way of madness Phaedr. 244a
"...We want healing from illness, but it's through illness that we grow and
are healed of our complacency. We're afraid of loss, and yet it's through
what we lose that we're able to find what nothing can take away from us. We
run from sadness and depression. But if we really face our sadness we find
it speaks with the voice of our deepest longing; and if we face it a little
longer we find that it teaches us the way to attain what we long for. ..."
~Peter Kingsley IN the DARK PLACES of WISDOM