Some long decade ago, I sat out on a hill and attempted (with all my heart) Tonglen breathing: to take in the pain of the world, see it turn to light, breathe it out. But somehow, the pain stayed in me.
How to let this go?
the point with tonglen is to NOT take in (and 'on') the pain and suffering but to transform it and give it back as healing golden light... you breathe it in and it transforms by that mere fact; then you give it back...
(or "for I am redeemed by art"...)
note 7/19/13 Holding the breath. That's exactly what I do. I have to learn how to breathe out completely...